since when la i started to be the old me.. listen to english songs.. search for the lyrics.. and jiwang2 sorang.. aiyaa.. skang tgh feeling dgr lagu Best of You..

I've got another confession to make
I'm your fool
Everyone's got their chains to break
Holdin' you

Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can't choose
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

Oh...Oh...Oh...Oh...

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

I've got another confession my friend
I'm no fool
I'm getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

nice ne, its wording.. me likeee..
tak tahan kalau kat bilik aa.. lagu Mr. Brightside kua je, abis satu bilik nyanyi jerit2 lagu tu.. jealousy, turning saints into the sea!!!.. haha.. smangat tu penting..

okeh, so, UPS is over bebeh!! muahahaa.. now i have 2 weeks worth of holidays.. hoho~

uhh.. baaka tul aa mamat ni.. spoiling my mood je.. yer aa.. i know where i stand.. im not like your other damn pretty looking girlfriends.. so be it aa..

hehe.. now, actually i dont feel that upset aa.. just nyampah je.. uhuks.. bad me eh? hmm.. so, i have a task at home.. have to pujuk my cats!! uhuhu.. diaorg suma merajuk pasal bawak balik those 2 cute cats.. dont they know our love for them wouldnt fade? ecehh.. but true la.. i love them like my own family.. huhuu.. it pains me to see how their feeling hurt.. *sobsob*

erk.. i havent eaten yet lorr.. mandi pun lom.. hehehe.. busuknye.. hoho~ jya dulu ah..

im homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeee!!!~ ^o^

ohohohooo~

uhuksss.. got UPS next wednesday.. wuwuu.. kowaiiii.. >____<

anyways, fetched the two furballs, helwa n utto this morning, man! arent they adorable.. ^_______^.. heeeeee.. so cute!!!!!! and very very small.. i feel like holding 'buluuu' than cats.. @___@.. dont worry!! they will grow to be pillow-like furballs here.. ohohohooo~

tangkap gamba gune webcam je.. uhukss.. nnt upload ba nye cam.. dpt gamba lawa sket.. mitte my fotopage.. ^^

guess what? im now an OK fan of siti.. hehehe.. suprised meh? no la.. im just ok ok with her now.. loads of her songs are good.. and her voice is so far~ excellent.. ive fallen in love with this one ~ Cinta Tak Berganti

Biarkanlah resah sayang
Sukar ku lalui
Buat ku berduka

Kenangkanlah oh semalam
Walau cinta dikunci
Janji tak ku lupa

Tak daya ku halangi
Tak ku cuba jauhi
Tetap di sini
Terus menanti

Ikrar kita mengharungi badai sakti
Mencari sinar kasih suci
Walaupun nafas ku ini pasti terhenti
Jangan pula ada sangsi lubuk hati
Percaya cinta tiada ganti
Kau yang ku cari
Kaulah kasih ke akhir hayat nanti

heeeee.. jiwang seh.. but best aa.. Dialah Di Hati pun best gak.. errrr.. ni suma gara2 denga ERA tetiap ari.. -___-.. urghhhhh.. dont like ERA.. please la.. @__@.. lagu Angguk2 Geleng2 tu dlm sehari lebih kurang 50 kali agaknye dia pasang.. gile pe?? >__<.. aa.. ckp banyak pun diaorg still jadi tumpuan ramai.. bleghh~

aaaaaaa.. nak p klinik!!! got Miyavi's songs to masukkan dlm pendrive.. hhuu.. nak burn cds for teh lagi.. tmrow nak kena balik matrix balik.. huhu.. rase tensen lak.. dah la kena wat essay lagi.. report lagi.. revision lagi.. aaaaaaa.. @__@.. camni next week taknak balik ah.. huhuhuu

ngeh ngehh.. havent been loads bout my matrix life, have i? welpp.. so my room is ok la, quite big (teh said), privacy~ got 4 beds, study tables and lockers.. each bed is put at each 4 corners.. then study table beside and lockers at the end of the beds.. err.. is my description imaginable? welll anyways, i have 3 roommates.. 1 from bangi, 1 from ampang and 1 from kedah.. hehe.. the one from bangi has a look-alike twin, and she's also there.. i should say she has loads in common with me, as in i can share loads of things with her, if i want to.. haha.. the thing is, im a boring person.. @___@.. guess peeps think i am.. hehe.. the kedah girl is very fun to be with.. we are in the same praktikum, so she's my closest roommate for now.. i like the way she talks.. loghat utagha.. hoho~ guess it's in my blood.. heeeee~ the ampang girl.. hmmm.. ok la.. hehe.. but i think she's kinda shy with me.. erkk~ hehe.. she's the happy go lucky, hu ha kind of person.. not to say a bit kl influenced.. hehe.. ahhh, no no, im not judging her.. ish3..

and recently, im starting to know my jiran depan bilik.. haha.. took me a month to do so!! hehe.. so the second time i entered their room, one of the girls there asked 'duk mane eh?'.. aaaa.. depan bilik laa.. ish3.. ari2 jumpe kat bilik air pun tak prasan.. kite je prasan dia.. huhu.. but then duk lame sket pastu dia ckp 'sweet aa muke dia ni'.. ehh.. haha.. cam dtg bilik org utk tayang muke.. hehe..

erkk.. one of ma's friend's daughter is there, khadijah.. hehe.. segan aa ngan dia.. her room is very near to mine.. i go to toilet without wearing tudun.. cause it's just next to my room.. and supposedly there is no guys there.. but she, of course wears tudun even a step outside her room.. huhuhu.. bad me? maybe i should wear tudun even a step outside my room.. kakak, what do you think? @___@.. but the thing is, her room is at the very end of the block, it is possible if the guys at cafe could see her.. but my room is a bit ke dalam.. so.. hmmmmm.. dou?

hehe.. aaa.. found the same situation between this matrix and NS kem, they all love my tudun liliting style.. haha.. maybe i should start a new tudun style, like Wardina and Bienda.. who knows maybe later there would be a 'tudun Aimi'.. haha.. gile.. hehe.. bukannye special sgt pun.. in fact i inherited the style from kakak.. hik3..

ahh.. suprisingly, last nite i dreamt of Gan.. isnt it weird? havent been thinking bout him for a while now, and suddenly i dreamt of him.. hihihii.. a very romantic dream indeed.. susah la crite.. hehe.. but not a blue one aaa.. ish3.. huhuu.. dah tak de prasaan la ngan dia.. mesti skang dia dah ade leng loi.. me? havent found a cute focusing target yet.. aiyaaa..

uhhuhhuu.. i FAILED!!!!!!!! >__________<

passed the parking, naik bukit and 3 point turn~ but fail jalan.. why? langga lampu merah.. @___@.. everytime i tell people i failed cause of the lampu merah thingy, they would go 'wooaahh, dasatnye.. teroknye.. ganaznye.. patut lee'.. uhuks uhukss.. sedih saye.. i wasnt prepared actually.. my points were deducted even before i started the engine.. @_@.. didnt check the wiper, signal, gear; the bonus points.. huhu.. forgot laa.. huhu.. welp, blessing in disguise, ill be a better driver, err, at least until the next test.. hehehe.. huhuu.. but still sedih.. have to skip another day of classes and kuliyahs, since they do tests only on weekdays.. @__@.. huhuu.. next week maybe.. aiyaaaaaaaa~

welp anyway, watched Tentang Dia just now.. ok la.. not some typical mushy mushy love story.. sempat rembeskan air mata sesket.. hehehe.. ahh and know what.. kan Tesco has this system whereby if you want to pay any video or cd or cassette, they would make sure you pay it, by assisting you while youre paying.. and if you want to shop2 first, you have to leave the thing after giving it to the salesperson.. only when you want to pay everything then you collect it.. aiyaa.. so yesterday, we forgot to take our cds and cassettes.. that time ma went back into the supermaket to buy beras and carrots.. i went to the cd section to take our cds.. ma didnt know i already pay for them, but the thing is, i only know ma took Broery Marantika's CD.. then, ma went to take all the other cds there and pay for them.. huhu.. besides ma's, ma took other peeps' cds also.. huhu.. thank god there were only 2 VCDs that time.. "...."

huhuu.. going back to matric at 6.. malasnye!! >_______<

adus.. hausnye.. nak air, tapi ade org kat bawah.. kekadang rase cam hari raye lak.. org asyik dtg rumah je.. huhuuu

tgh upload gamba2 dlm handphone ma and ba, nak kasi kakak, bancik ngan teh.. banyak pulak gambanye.. huhu..

so, yesterday went to KL with ba, ma and bangah.. ba is not as strong as everyone thought ba is.. huhuu.. ba could hardly walk more than 15 minutes.. ba would get tired, and sweating, even in an air-conditined shopping complex.. but ba will improve, surely will, ne.. ^__^..

sayu.. when ba said, ba saw something very bright, yellow, red.. 'waaa, lawanye.. aku dah boleh nampak ke ni?'.. then suddenly ba terjage.. gelap balik suma.. mimpi rupenye.. huhuu..

today i went to bukit katil again.. driving class.. but ma fetched me before my turn to park.. i just went back je.. so many peeps.. @___@.. we singgah at tesco.. bought LOADS of things, i do mean a lot.. hehe.. just imagine, our trolley was so full, some things had to be carried by hands!~ haha.. and everyone who passed me and the trolley would turn their heads around and looked at our things.. ish ish ishh.. gayat pe? but it as expensive as when kakak+me+abgdayat went shopping.. haha..

erkk.. tomorrow got JPJ test.. im not ready.. @___@.. what if i fail? iskkk.. i tend to drive like a silly cipan whe n panic.. @___@.. pressing the pedal like a mad man when the gear is smiling happily at free gear.. huhuu.. try to focus la besok.. >__<

huhu. lamenye tak update. >_<

so, im at melaka already. finished PLKN, entered KMM. hmmm. bad news, my name was registered for Sains Fizikal. baaka. i dont want physics, i want biology. >___<. hopefully tomorrow i can declare myself as a 'budak hayat'. god knows how sufferring it was when i had to say 'Sains Fizikal' everytime people asked my course. @__@. uhh, am i exaggerating? hehe.

huhu. yesterday sent kakteh to airport. *sobsob*. being left again. huhuu. i dont know what's harder, to leave or being left. but i know it pains me to be the static one. huhuhuhuu. plus when kakak is not here. at least before this i had one of my sisters with me. now? both of them are not here. im alone!!

Lonely I'm so lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely..

huhu.. like what kakak said, i have to be stronger. think nothing but STUDY. *sigh*.. i will try. i WILL!~ ganbatte aimi.. 

aaaaaaaaaahh!! i have good news!!~ *^o^*.. kakak's UPT is POSITIVE!! waaaa.. *excited*. (^o^)/.. hope everything would go well and in another 9 months we would have the first baby in the family.. yay!!~ huhuu. takut gak. tapi heharap lekat la. insyaAllah..

huhu. nak kena pack barang. >_____<. babaii rumah~ esok leh balik kot. ahhhhh.. baba pindah HKL esok. yay!!~ (^o^)/o. nak p visit ba. dah lama tak jumpe ba. tak sesaba nak tgk ba jalan2, cakap2, senyum2, gelak2.. huhuuu. miss everything bout ba, soo much. YoY.. syukran Ya Allah, for saving my father. alhamdulillah... Alllahu Akbar.. ne? ^__^

memilih? choosy? am i? muehehee.. im used to not being one.. as long as i feel comfortable with that person, things will go on fine.. but now? haha

no la.. its not the right time.. when the time comes, and the right person is finally there, choosy or not, i would just accept, openheartedly.. but now is the time to enjoy, yeehaaaa.. usha all the leng chais available, and test luck.. ngeh ngehhh.. experience is very important!! muahahaaa..

hmm.. i often received the 'do you have any bf' question, here at NS.. why? because most of the kids there have one or maybe more.. -__-.. but once, angie asked me about my ex bfs, if i have any.. cause she said 'you are pretty one, why you dont have many bfs'.. haha.. guess that means im not that pretty meh..

here, i tell you la, jadi la lawa sket pun, mesti kena kaco ngan bebudak miang.. thank goodness no one wants to kaco me.. urghh.. at first i felt a bit jealous at the bunga2 way penyu courts azzy.. but now, ahh tiidakk.. i feel like puking already, reading all the extra jiwang karat ayats he gave.. eeeuuuuwww.. maybe i wont feel this way if i feel what he feels, but being a 'jaga tepi kain org', aaaaaaa, gile punye geli.. hahaaa.. best bace, tapi tak tahan.. kekekee.. terok nyee saye.. yg best tu masa nak balik tadi, sempay penyu jumpe azzy.. 'ayang, abang balik dulu eh'.. azzy lak, 'aa, ye la'.. without even looking at him.. then penyu 'abang nak balik ni.. jgn rindu lak nanti'.. azzy, 'takde.. dah la, malu la'.. hehe.. coldnye la azzy tu.. if i were in penyu's shoes, i would carik org lain cepat2.. hahaa.. sombong bena.. kekee..

iskk.. suke cite pasal org.. tah pape la.. tak baik utk kesihatan.. >__<

aa.. my lao kong is so cute!!~ hehee.. nak tunggu cuci gamba je, leh ltk gamba leng chai bawah bantal mase tdo.. hahaa.. terok tul prangai.. heeeee.. so i have at least two lao kongs, which i remember most.. a girl lao kong and a guy lao kong.. haha.. the best part is, the guy lao kong is a leng chaii.. pretty boy.. hihii.. best best.. tadi masa nak balik, lalu depan leng chai nye dorm, pastu ah yin panggil 'aimii'.. toleh tgk leng chai ngan ah yin dedua tak pakai baju, ee seksi, and sekeping nye.. -__-.. kekee.. pastu diaorg babaii.. hehe.. comel je.. but dedua muke blurr, maybe pasal bangah fetched me.. my abang la, not my bf, dont worry lao kongg!! hahaa.. but the chinese girls kat my dorm cam tak kasi kacau leng chai je.. keke.. sorry sorry.. he's not interested in me in a romantic way.. tho i wish he does.. *sob sob*.. hehe..

ahh.. yesterday got there at almost 7pm.. erkk.. :p lambat nyee.. then everyone was so excited, i wonder why.. 'aimiii, aimiii'.. aaa? haha.. they all asked the same question, 'esok you tak balik ke?'.. balik la, cikgu mazlan tu la, soh org balik gak arini.. >__<.. huhu.. then azzy came rushing, running, through my dorm.. 'AIIIMIIIIIII'.. aaa? what happened? suddenly i felt as tho i had just received hugs and kisses.. aaaaaaaaaaaaa.. "___".. she even wept.. uhuu.. *touched*.. i didnt realise she would miss me that much.. hehe.. hahaa... the funny part was when my dormmates exclaimed in shocking, *huhhh* expressions, looking at each other, then angie called me.. 'aimi, come here'.. errr.. 'aimii, come here'.. errrrr.. i didnt move, so angie came to me and gave me a kiss.. errkkkk.. aa.. ape ni? pertandingan kiss aimi? hahaa.. cute tho.. :p

so how was yesterday's interview? hmm.. first we had writing test.. had to write an essay about 'WHat's your chosen field and why did you choose that field?'.. hmmm.. thankfully i had discussed that particular issue with my parents.. but i still forgot a couple of points.. aiyaa.. panic lohh.. then we were divided into small groups, each group consists 8 people.. i was in the third group and my discussion time was at 12pm.. so we, aimi kakak and abg dayat went out to have our breakfast at pekan Alor Gajah and bought the Star.. huhuu..

got into the discussion room at about 12.15pm.. i was seated at the 5th seat.. first we had to introduce ourselves.. told them my name, where i come from and im an NS trainee.. then we were given the topic 'Increasing usage of handphones among youths' ~advantages and disadvantages~.. 10 minutes to get ourselves ready, then the discussion started.. a chinese boy from the same kem as me was there.. he was good.. good points, expressed fluently.. then i joined in the discussion.. at first i was a bit nervous, everything went out of place.. twisted my tongue, grammar masuk longkang.. but after a while, my hands stopped shaking and i managed to say things naturally.. ahh.. but i still sucked.. >__<

*sigh*.. i had tried my best.. tawakaltualallah.. hoping i would get it.. but i would accept any decision they make.. ^__^

im not exaggerating, i really am obviously getting darker.. >__<.. kakak called me 'garing'.. waaaaaaa.. *sob sob*.. ke lian wo.. huhu..



see the belang?? wuwu.. ecehh.. muke pun cam nak nangis.. hehee.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. tiidakk.. dah nak dekat 6 ptg and i havent siap!~ err.. interview tak sempat nak cite.. esok ahh.. mlm ni nak berdikir.. yay!~ dpt cuci mata tgk daRwin and Leng cHai.. ngeh ngehh.. *evil grin*

itoshii hito.. nakaiide.. *sob sob*.. miya-kunn.. huhuhuu

finally, im gonna say this for the last time, CANT BELIEVE IM LEAVING!!! waaaa.. huhuuhuuu..

tadi, masa on the way nak balik from kl, i received loads of smses and calls.. *touched*.. and a few of them said they called home but no answer.. huhuhuu.. some even called my handphone.. huhuuu.. thanks guys.. i need all the lucks.. ^__^.. now i realise how blessed i am to have loads of good friends.. hehe.. and most importantly, to have such a wonderful, beautiful, perfect family.. love my family so much!! much much much much much much muchh!!!!! huhuhuuuu.. unconditional love is so beautiful, isnt it?

ahh.. anyways.. went to matok's palce yesterday.. datuk gave me rm100.. hehe.. tatau nak react camne.. hahaa.. then today matok gave me another rm100.. matok said she wants to give more, she'll give the rest later.. huhuu.. my result is so common compared to my other sedare belah mama.. huhuu.. 11A1 la, 12A la.. aiyaaa.. hahahaa.. and mine is not even 8A1s.. hik hik hikkk.. takpe la.. dah tu resultnye.. syukur je la.. hehe

okehh!! nak buat banyak bende.. huhuu.. babaii blog.. babaii peeps.. wish me luck, safety and fun!! hehe.. ^__^.. daa~

gonna miss my kakteh so much.. huhu

erk.. nyamuk? why are there bintik2 timbul2 gatal2 at my feet?? _<.. huhu..>